F*cks be damned. 

So did I mention I literally can’t go an entire day without saying the F-word? Today is no different. However, I think I need to revise my rules again. Not just so I can complete this task in front of me, although getting past day one would be nice; but instead to be more precise in my expectations and what I’ll be held accountable to. 

Since I use that particular word like a comma (no, really), I have decided I’m only not allowed to use it negatively. I mean, that’s what this is about: rewiring my everyday habits to raise my vibration to the more intensely positive, isn’t it? 

I’m going to still try and refrain from using the word generally, in hopes of expanding my vocabulary, but if something is super great sometimes a “Fuck yes!!!” will be the only appropriate response. I’m not trying to limit myself, and not using F in a positive situation would be limiting. 

Nevertheless, specifics aside, I’m still on day one. In every other aspect, I’m feeling successful. The words I typically use in negative situations are easily replaced by lower intensity words. This has helped gently bring down the negatives, allowing me to feel more positive about situations that would normally have a greater  negative impact on my mood, or worse, escillate the situation further negatively. 

Further, telling people I’m having a wonderful day, rather than a good day just feels good. I like feeling wonderful. I like being ecstatic about things. I enjoy having an exciting time, rather than just a fun one. These are all fantastic things to feel and I’m grateful that I get to feel them whenever I want. This part of my assignment I’m feeling good about. I like. Now, if I could just stop cussing when I’m upset. 

More to come. Thanks for reading!

Is there a cussing anonymous?

Seriously? I can go all day and then one argument with my husband immediately makes me drop the F-Bomb. 

Today marks the second day in a row this has happened, so, I’m still on day one. Again. And again. And again. It’s the absolute worst version of the movie Groundhog Day. I’m in my own personal pergatory. 

Since I already said it today and I’m slated to start all over again tomorrow- fuck, this fucking sucks. There. I feel better. Goddammit. 

Day 1! I’ll call it a success.

Today was a huge change from yesterday. I feel more uplifted and positive about my ability to not only complete this challenge, but also change my mental outlook. I’m excited and feeling good.

That’s not to say today has been without frustrations or slight setbacks in my positivity, because having to deal with people in life pretty much ensures both of these things. However, I haven’t said the F-word (out loud, but I’m working on the running dialogue in my head next. Baby steps.), or even yelled at anyone while driving.

Granted, the day is not over yet and I still have a commute to run errands and home. I’m not being pessimistic, just realistic. I should be home in a few hours where I can relax and hang out with my family in relative F-word-free comfort. But until then, I’m feeling good about my progress!

Now, if I can get this Friday out the door, that’d be great!

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