Category: July/ August

Day 5- Gratitude Project 

Again I’m late writing this entry, but the reason for it is part of why I’m  grateful. Sunday night, as we were relaxing on the couch, I suddenly had a wave of panic wash over me, and the image of a sign posted at one of my work sites flash before my eyes. 

Shit! I forgot that Monday is our monthly safety training! I thought it was next week! And because I was preoccupied with other fires needing to be put out, I didn’t prepare the training materials for the supervisor. 

I work up Monday morning at 4:45am, when I normally arise around 5:30-6am. I rushed through putting my breakfast and lunch in my bag and getting ready for the day. I made it out of the house in 45 minutes with everything I needed so I could get to the office before the training began. 

As I was walking to the front door, my boss was also walking up. He looked at me strangely and asked why I was there so early. I explained why and he laughed. He stated they could figure it out and it wasn’t necessary for me to do it. 

In this regard, I’m grateful for my dedication, loyalty, and desire to ensure everything is done correctly. Had I left it to the hands of others, chances are it would not have been done correctly. Our industry is highly regulated and in the event of an audit, our documentation must be in order. So because I’m a dedicated person, one that does not like passing off my responsibilities to other simply because I forgot, and because I am loyal to my bosses, I could not in good conscience skip out on my duties. 

I am grateful for my sense of dedication, even to things I’m only mildly responsible for. Occasionally this bites me in the ass, because I internalize and assume responsibility for too many things. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’m thankful for my ability to make things “mine”. 

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Day 4- Gratitude Project

I am writing this post a day later than I planned because my husband decided that we were going to have a full day without screens. No phones, no internet, no TV, no computers… nothing at all. The reason behind this “day without screens” stemmed from a card game we’ve been playing called “Sneaky Cards”, and there are action cards, interaction cards, and all sorts of other things. But the premise is that it gets you out of your comfort zone, interacting with other people…

So yesterday, I was grateful for the time that my family had together without the distraction of screens. We are so dependent on the computer and phone and tablet and ipod and whatever being attached to us at all times. It was liberating and at the same time a little uncomfortable to go to the store without my cell phone. I was mostly concerned that if I got into trouble, I would have no way of contacting help. I had my baby with me, so that was my main concern. However, we made it to the grocery store unscathed. I am grateful for that.

During the day without screens my husband dug a trench to fill with concrete and then he filled it with concrete after we went to the home improvement store. This is to prevent our Houdini dog from escaping the yard when we aren’t looking. She managed to escape twice in the last few days. I’m grateful she didn’t get far, didn’t get into anything serious, and was caught and quickly put back in the house. He also cleaned out the garage while I watched our little one and went to the grocery store. We had our meals together as a family at the table, instead of on the couch in front of the tv. We listened to music, read books, and just enjoyed our time together. I’m incredibly thankful for these moments.

After dinner, my husband called off the screen-free day. This was a little earlier than the card suggested, but I’m impressed at how long we went without really missing it. However, he was sore and tired, and just wanted to relax on the couch as a family. The baby crawled around the couch and floor while we talked and played with her. We watched an episode of a show we’re watching before we went out to water the garden. Soon after, I went to bed and they went to the park to meet up with some friends. I am grateful that we had such a fulfilling day, followed by me going to bed early. I had to work much earlier than normal today, so I am thankful for the little bit of baby-free rest. She wasn’t ready for bed when I was. I’m thankful that he took her to the park so that she was tired when they arrived home. I was able to nurse her to sleep right away and fall back to sleep myself. I’m grateful for the small things, and the big things.

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Day 3- Gratitude Project

This morning I’m grateful for my level head in times of conflict, confrontation, and emergency. Granted, sometimes there is an initial wave of panic, generally I can overcome the fray and be level. 

My reason for writing this today is because we had a meet up with some people from a car enthusiast group my husband is part of. We had it at a dog park early this morning because it would be too hot later in the day. We have three dogs ourselves, and the car company we are enthusiastic about is really dog friendly. My husband had a bunch of car brand swag to give away, like tennis balls, frisbees, bandanas, and other such things. 

When we got to the park we noticed the large dog area was closed for construction, so we had to go to the small dog section. There was only one dog, besides ours, so I sat with them and our baby while hubby went back to the car to get the swag. I chatted with the lady with the dog. While he was walking back, another family came. They were pleasant, until they weren’t. Their dog had ‘short man syndrome’ and decided to pick a fight with our deaf dog. She wasn’t fighting back, but she was nearing teeth and holding their little pup down. I quickly grabbed her collar as they picked up theirs. We were talking about them. I apologized that she was holding their dog down and they explained he sometimes got aggressive with large dogs. I held my dog’s collar while they walked around and we were cordial. They left soon after with an attitude. Not my problem. Our dog wasn’t aggressive, or even really as forceful as she could have been. She certainly didn’t start it. 

I was holding her when my husband returned, as that couple were leaving with their dog in a huff. Apparently they believed they had the right of way or something. Not my problem. When he got back to the bench we were on, I let her go run around. I did all this while holding our baby. 

A little bit later other dogs came, most of them were nice. However, there was another, much more dramatic altercation between two dogs that weren’t ours. A small dog got tackled by an aggressive dog. It sounded worse than it was, and the man with the small pup was being extremely dramatic. The interaction lasted less than one minute, and by the way he was reacting, you’d think his dog was getting mauled. The owners of the other dog reacted quickly and stopped the situation by holding their dog down until the other guy gathered himself and his dog. However, he couldn’t just leave it as two dogs having politics. He was swearing and insulting the other people, and just generally being an asshole. 

He was taking photos and talking about city ordinances. While holding my baby I stepped in and told him that there was no law about large dogs and the off leash park, so long as they were not aggressive. We had just as much right being there as he did, and that the attitude, language, and drama was unnecessary. Naturally, because he was being shitty, the other guy started getting angry and with a fence between them an argument started. 

My husband stepped in and tried to get the small dog owner to move along so the other people could remove their pet and go home as well. This took entirely too long because the small dog owner just wanted to fight, and the other guy wasn’t going to just let him talk shit. Truthfully, had other people not been there, a fight would have likely happened. 

Unfortunately, dogs just sometimes have politics. They’re individuals just like people and some dogs just don’t get along with other dogs. It’s not other dog’s fault your dog doesn’t like them. It’s just what it is. 

Anyway, this could have been worse, but I believe our level heads and interactions with these people helped diffuse a potentially physical altercation. 

Dog people generally just understand that shit happens and sometimes pets get hurt. I’ve had my fair share of dog politics and my dogs have been on both sides: instigator and victim. But what makes it worse is asshol humans. Adding fuel and fire to an emergency or tense situation is not likely to make things better. Keeping tempers in check is an asset, and today I’m grateful that everyone was able to generally keep their cool. The world has been a violent place lately and we don’t need any more of that right now. Tensions are high and we live in an open carry state. People get shot for less and I’m thankful that there was no violence. 

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Day 2- Gratitude Project

Today I am thankful for my kid. She is the light of my life and my reason for living. I know that sounds trite, but I adore her. My husband has been sending me photos and videos of her doing the most hilarious things today. These things have made a very stressful day so much better. I’m grateful that my husband has the notion to share these moments of silliness that they share together with me while am working. I am jealous of him being able to stay with her all day, and I truly feel like I am missing moments in her life that can never be replayed. I’m so thankful that he encourages her to grow and experience things while I am at work, and that he can share them with me. I would give almost anything to be the one that stays home with her, but that’s simply not possible right now. So in the meantime, I get to see her shining face in the evenings and over photos or video. She is developing such an amazing little personality, and I am so thankful to be part of it. More to the point, I’m glad that my husband thinks of me during these times where he could be absent minded or just plain selfish. I am so thankful for both of them being who they are and in my life. Without them, my life would be less full, less interesting, less busy, and less complete. I am grateful for the small moments I have with them both. I am so grateful that I get to watch her sleep in the wee hours, but I’m also thankful on the rare occasions that she wakes up early. I am always late to work those days, but I get to spend moments with her that I could not have had otherwise. I am thankful that I get those moments, even if I’m late and rushing later. My husband is not so thankful when she wakes up early, because he has to wake up early when I have to leave for work.

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Day 1- Gratitude Project

Today, and really every day, I’m grateful for my job. I am grateful to be employed, yes. But beyond the fact that I have a steady income to support my family, I actually like my job. I have only been here a short time, but I truly feel appreciated and valued, even though I’m only a contract employee. I’ve been told how valuable I am and how much I am appreciated for the work I do, as well as the attitude that I bring to the team. I don’t make a huge amount of money, but it’s significantly more than my previous job, and there’s no “fake nice” here, like there was there. Everyone is genuine, like it or not. People are direct, but kind. And you know where you stand with everyone. But no matter where you stand, everyone is pleasant and there’s no catty gossip and backstabbing. People work together as a team, valuing the strengths of everyone else. Of course there are arguments and people get their feelings hurt. However, they don’t hold grudges and talk shit behind their backs, at least for long. You cannot get ahead in this company by being an asshole. I am grateful for this.

I am grateful for the opportunity to work in a new industry and expand my skills as a person and employee. I am challenged almost every day to learn something new or grow in my role here. In just a few months I’ve been able to surpass the duties of my predecessor significantly. I’ve expanded my role to almost twice her weekly hours, and secured myself as a valuable asset to multiple working groups and teams. I love helping others and I love learning new things. This job allows me to do both regularly, and I am thankful for that.

I’m also grateful for the fact that I’m treated like an adult. I do not have someone standing over me all day, monitoring my every move. I am allowed to take a break whenever I need to, surf the internet if I feel like it, and I still manage to get more done in a day than I ever did previously. It means something to feel like you’re not under the microscope. I’m eternally grateful for this.

And finally, I’m grateful for the flexibility of this position. It’s very important that I’m here, because I serve as the hub for many processes, however I can take vacation with a little notice, or adjust my schedule if I need to do something during the day. I’m not trapped at my desk 100% of my day, until a specified time, day in and day out. It’s a beautiful thing. This allows me to join my baby for doctor visits, come in a little late if she needs me in the morning, or get off a little early so that we can get things done before the middle of the night. I’m so very grateful that I found this job.

I appreciate every minute I get to spend here, as well as the challenges and people that come with the title. I am very glad that I passed up other opportunities, even though they were very tempting and lucrative at the time. I truly do not believe that I would have been as happy at those places, as I am here. Nor do I think I would have wanted to stay there forever. Not that I want to stay in this place forever, I’m sure I could if I wanted to. All of those other failed interviews and complicated situations that just “didn’t feel right” at the time, were simply blessings in disguise. I am grateful that they didn’t pan out the way I hoped then and that this opportunity pretty much landed in my lap. I’m so fortunate for so many reasons to be here in this place. And that’s what I’m grateful for today.

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