Tag: Health

I blame Tony

Ok, so I don’t blame him exactly. But rather, I blame him for being such an inspiring guy and leading me to believe that if he can do it, I can too. I know I can change things about myself. I’ve successfully done that many times in my quest for becoming the best human I can be (striving for perfection really).

However, my quest for perfection and this challenge do not like one another very much. I’ve gone three days now without really breaking my rules. However, THINKING has been my downfall. I may not say the F-word out loud, but you better believe I’m cussing up a storm in my head. I’m working on it. Progress. But it’s not perfect and it’s making me crazy. Lol

Going to keep at it tomorrow. Heading into day 4! Woooo!

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Conscious effort

Day two has been a successful effort in changing my mindset. This morning when I left for work (even though I was running late), I made the conscious effort to smile and not allow the bastards to get me down.

It felt good. Smiling for absolutely no reason in the car, singing silly songs, and making jokes all day at work makes me feel good. Taking down my negative intensity a notch feels good. I’m optimistic and feeling great today. Happy day two of changing my mindset!

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The universe isn’t going easy on me

I am proud of my ability to not drop an F-bomb today, but damn I wanted to. People are trying to make me crazy at work, so bad.

I pride myself on my ability to babysit grown adults and conduct myself professionally. I was definitely skating that line of professionalism at a couple moments today. However, my desk Slinky and a few muttering-under-my-breath choice words.

Anyway, tomorrow is finally day two! Yes! Progress!

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Day 1! I’ll call it a success.

Today was a huge change from yesterday. I feel more uplifted and positive about my ability to not only complete this challenge, but also change my mental outlook. I’m excited and feeling good.

That’s not to say today has been without frustrations or slight setbacks in my positivity, because having to deal with people in life pretty much ensures both of these things. However, I haven’t said the F-word (out loud, but I’m working on the running dialogue in my head next. Baby steps.), or even yelled at anyone while driving.

Granted, the day is not over yet and I still have a commute to run errands and home. I’m not being pessimistic, just realistic. I should be home in a few hours where I can relax and hang out with my family in relative F-word-free comfort. But until then, I’m feeling good about my progress!

Now, if I can get this Friday out the door, that’d be great!

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Tomorrow is another day…

This is going to take me a long time.

I have managed to go 5 hours (waking hours that is) without saying one or more of my “taboo” words. I knew this was going to be a challenge, which is why I chose the words I did, but seriously. People driving dangerously, arguing with my husband and frustration at work are a recipe for failure. I’m not sure that my words are what need to change, so much as everything around me at this point.

I know that is just my emotion speaking, but I already feel defeated. I’ve been an emotional rollercoaster today, and not being able to use my go-to words is not working out well for me.  However, to my credit, just in writing this blog entry, I’ve chosen the intensity of my words more carefully. I already edited a couple words to make them more aligned with the true intensity of how I’m feeling and the reality of the situations. I feel like that is progress.

Speaking of intensity, I need to make an edit to one of my “negative” words. Instead of using overwhelmed as my replacement for stress, I’m going to use overstretched. I determined today that overwhelmed has about the same level of intensity for me and causes the same tight reaction in my body. Overstretched is a calmer word and elicits a lower vibration.

With that being said, tomorrow is another day. I’m going to start over tomorrow and do better. I’m going to try my best, because, let’s face it- I’m only human.

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