Tag: Motivation

Fight or flight

It has become increasingly difficult to focus on my day job. Not only am I bored by the tasks and lack of opportunity for growth, but I also have so many other things in the works. I am working on becoming my own boss and business owner and trying to maintain some shred of hope, given the political climate in this country.

I’ve never felt such a direct and opposite “pulling” force between my fight and flight sides. Part of me wants to try and keep some semblance of the life I lead, to not lose hope, to fight the good fight and create the life I am meant for. But on the other hand, there is something strongly pulling me away from all that, telling me that my family is more important and getting them the hell out of this dumpster before it blows sky high. I just want to run away somewhere safe and hope there’s a life to come back to in four years.

Between social media and the mainstream media, I’m overwhelmed and saddened. The alternative media is equally disheartening. We are living in a very sad time for human rights and social responsibility. It can be paralyzing, and right now, I feel paralyzed with glimmers of motivation and action. It simply weighs heavy on my heart that the world is not shaping up to be a place where people are free to love and marry whomever they choose, that health is only for the wealthy, and that life is largely not affordable for those that work for a living. It is saddening. And those of us that were working toward those things, hoping beyond hope for those things, are devastated. The feeling is real.

Finding happiness in the destruction of everything we hold dear as a nation borders on impossible. The only thing keeping my head above water is my physical and moral obligation to not fuck up for my kid. She knows nothing of the world, of politics. She is content being a toddler and little else. She loves her parents, her pets, eating snacks, and good music. If only everything were that simple. But her smile makes my day worth the struggle. What else is there? My husband, gardening, pets that we care for… they’re the crux of my life. They are the catalyst to happiness, since happiness comes from within. My family makes me want to be a better person, to keep waking up every day, and to be happy when it’s appropriate.

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15 Minutes is a LONG time

When I originally set my goals for this and next month, it was my thinking that I can do just about anything for fifteen minutes. It’s not THAT long, but it’s long enough to get something accomplished, right? Wrong! When you set a timer and actually MAKE yourself do something for a predetermined amount of time, it’s incredibly long.

For instance, fifteen minutes of watching television; easy. Fifteen minutes of scrubbing the grout; hard. Fifteen minutes of talking with your honey without distractions of pets and television; pretty easy. Fifteen minutes of cleaning out the cat box or giving the dog a bath or dusting the electronics; hard. Now, most of these things are not hard in the traditional sense, like scrubbing grout, but they’re a special kind of hard. They are the hard that while you know it needs to be done, finding the motivation to do it is terribly hard to come by. Even things you WANT to do, like find your missing whatever, take a walk around the block on a sunny day, do yoga… when you add into the mix a lack of motivation (either because of being tired or just not really into that particular thing at that moment), I think that the task is doomed. This is where I’m at. Doomed.

I say doomed in a lighthearted, not “really” doomed, kind of way. But doing the task is unlikely to happen. I think that it’s this reason many resolutions fail shortly after the new year. People are tired, busy, stressed out and generally pulled in many directions… so much so that finding the drive to complete even necessary tasks, like doing the dishes, is potentially an overwhelming burden. I can only imagine what adding children to that stew would be like. I can see it from the “pet perspective” clear as day, however. So, my point is this… motivation is the key to getting anything done, even the stuff you want to do. Now, if I could find some of that stuff lying around, I’d be golden in getting to my goals this month.

Fifteen minutes is a long time….

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