Stay in your own lane

I was touching base last night with the bestie about our progress and any challenges we might be experiencing with this 10 day challenge. Aside from my inability to go without saying the F-word for an entire day, things for me have been going really well. She’s having much fewer challenges than I am, but she’s not married. ;)

One thing she mentioned while we were chatting is that it’s become easier to spot the negative people. I hadn’t really thought about it, but now that I have, it’s absolutely true. Not only are they easier to pick out of the noise in daily life, but I’ve got a total aversion to being around them. I’ve been fully utilizing the Facebook features “unfollow” and “remove notifications” because honestly, I’m just so tired of seeing negative people being negative and constantly posting negative and divisive crap online. I’ve been guilty of this myself, but I’m being a lot more conscious of what I’m posting and reposting. I’m not saying that people are not free to post whatever they want on their profiles. Not even a little bit am I insinuating that people censor themselves, certainly not for me. But I’m making the daily decision to not follow negativity. I’m far too sensitive to things around me to be bombarded all the time with these posts and images.

I will say that I’m also biting my tongue more online. I know that my opinions are not that important and I just don’t care to argue online with total strangers, or worse, my friends, about things that don’t actually matter. I’m going to go on about my life and very little of what I do influences other people. I’m not trying to “change” anyone but me. If other people are moved to make changes in their own lives, great, I’m happy to help. However, I’m not in the market for trying to force people to do anything. That doesn’t mean that there aren’t positions that I’m extremely passionate about, because there surely are. I just don’t feel like it’s my role to force people into changes that they aren’t ready for. They will change when they are ready. I’m staying in my lane and focusing on the positive future in front of me. That’s all I can do. I’m learning my limitations and how to be patient. It’s a slow process, but it might finally be sinking in. Shout out to my girl for being the catalyst to this thought process. I heart your face.

I blame Tony

Ok, so I don’t blame him exactly. But rather, I blame him for being such an inspiring guy and leading me to believe that if he can do it, I can too. I know I can change things about myself. I’ve successfully done that many times in my quest for becoming the best human I can be (striving for perfection really).

However, my quest for perfection and this challenge do not like one another very much. I’ve gone three days now without really breaking my rules. However, THINKING has been my downfall. I may not say the F-word out loud, but you better believe I’m cussing up a storm in my head. I’m working on it. Progress. But it’s not perfect and it’s making me crazy. Lol

Going to keep at it tomorrow. Heading into day 4! Woooo!

Conscious effort

Day two has been a successful effort in changing my mindset. This morning when I left for work (even though I was running late), I made the conscious effort to smile and not allow the bastards to get me down.

It felt good. Smiling for absolutely no reason in the car, singing silly songs, and making jokes all day at work makes me feel good. Taking down my negative intensity a notch feels good. I’m optimistic and feeling great today. Happy day two of changing my mindset!

The universe isn’t going easy on me

I am proud of my ability to not drop an F-bomb today, but damn I wanted to. People are trying to make me crazy at work, so bad.

I pride myself on my ability to babysit grown adults and conduct myself professionally. I was definitely skating that line of professionalism at a couple moments today. However, my desk Slinky and a few muttering-under-my-breath choice words.

Anyway, tomorrow is finally day two! Yes! Progress!

Day 1! I’ll call it a success.

Today was a huge change from yesterday. I feel more uplifted and positive about my ability to not only complete this challenge, but also change my mental outlook. I’m excited and feeling good.

That’s not to say today has been without frustrations or slight setbacks in my positivity, because having to deal with people in life pretty much ensures both of these things. However, I haven’t said the F-word (out loud, but I’m working on the running dialogue in my head next. Baby steps.), or even yelled at anyone while driving.

Granted, the day is not over yet and I still have a commute to run errands and home. I’m not being pessimistic, just realistic. I should be home in a few hours where I can relax and hang out with my family in relative F-word-free comfort. But until then, I’m feeling good about my progress!

Now, if I can get this Friday out the door, that’d be great!

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